Dear my fellow followers, friends, creepers, people of this world:
they call me jennifer, but jenni is the shorthand. the east coast is sweeter than you think. i reside in the western coast of northern virginia. i live right on the boundary line of south riding and aldie - having to choose between schools year after year. originally from the eastern part of my county. i just reached the age of 16, with a long ways to go until 17 - and a sophomore in high school.
random facts dump: my main nicknames are - tangerine, tangster, jennster, strawberry, misty, bg, jt. they all have a story behind them. my favorite colors are tickle me pink, columbia blue, and royal purple. my favorite animals are dinosaurs and i adore finding nemo more than you. i love to hang out with the loves (they’re my best friends), sing, doodle, write, take photos, and get my hopes up on the littlest things. i’m a fangirl when it come to jung yong hwa and kang min hyuk - don’t get in my way. my favorite k-drama currently is heartstrings. i have trouble finding words for how i feel.
1. i have my share of secrets and scars. some of which not even my best friends know. i’m open about my life to a certain point. if we’re talking and you start to get really personal and ask me questions that i don’t want to answer. i’ll do one of two things - get really silent or start being awkward by changing the subject.
2. i’m the kind of girl that is constantly trying to find her way towards happiness in life. i’m the one that tries to keep in mind that when the world starts falling down, it’ll eventually get better and everything will be okay.
3. i state the truth. i don’t go around and sugarcoat things. i say it how it is. especially if i’ve known you for a while. i state the truth because i want you to understand how to accept the real thing. but - there are exceptions. there are always exceptions. speaking of truth, i have trouble trusting people being of my past experience. so please, don’t give me a reason to not trust you and give me more reasons to do so.
4. i fall in love easily. i’ve always been like that. sometimes it’s temporary - for a week or two. sometimes it’s on and off. other times it’s forever. my love life is… i guess i could write a book about it. there’s only one guy i ever actually ‘loved’ and i still do. and due to the circumstances, we’re not together anymore. not because we wanted to, but because we had to. we were thinking about each other’s happiness rather than ourselves.
5. to me, love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into the room and smile at you.
6. my best friend’s the first boy i ever slow danced with, ever cried over- ever loved.
7. my thoughts tend to get the best of me, they never go away. i hurt those that mean the most to me, and i don’t even realize it until it’s too late. i tend to push people away when they start to get too close, because i fear that they’re going to hurt me in the end. i put the other person’s happiness before my own, because their happiness is much more important than mine. i try my best to accept life as it is.
8. i hate those preppy people that think their life is so amazing. and i hate those people that think their life is over because of little things. little as in… “oh my gosh i don’t have makeup on, the world’s ending because i’m ugly now.” seriously? please. get yourself together. it’s just makeup. to sum it up, i hate those preppy girls that have to be pretty 24/7 and those girls that think they’re fat for wearing size 5 jeans.
9. i play the flute, attempting the trumpet, while owning a guitar that i don’t know how to play and having a keyboard that i can play simple songs on. yeah, i’m a music person. oh, and i’ve been in marching band for two years. and it’s honestly the greatest. you meet the greatest people and make friendships that last a lifetime. despite the long band camps, and cold fall weather — you learn to suffer together.
10. i have one little brother currently in eighth grade and he has autism. so be careful around me. if you make fun of kids in special education, i will fight back.
11. i’ve always wanted to travel around the world with my best friend - like to rome, paris, california, italy. i want to see the world from a different perspective. speaking of traveling, new york city is my favorite place to be. i feel like i belong there because there’s all the things to do and people to see.
12. i hate being alone. i like having company. when i’m alone, my thoughts take me over and things get pretty intense with me. that’s why i don’t enjoy going home all the time.
13. things that make to happy are:
-receiving notes
-receiving a single flower, rather than a bouquet.
-things that smell good
-pouring rain
-sparkles
-happy people
-teddy bears
-surprises
i hope this has summed it all up for you. but just because you’ve read this doesn’t mean you know the ‘real me’. so if you ever need anything, just message me (: my tumblr is to help others realize they’re not the only ones suffering. my tumblr is for me and for you. some aspect of my tumblr could easily relate to you - and life’s easier when you know someone is going through the same thing that you are going through. always follow your heart because it’ll lead to someplace beautiful. and remember whatever happens, things will eventually turn around and it’ll all work out.
Signing out with bunches of love,
Jenni Tang
